Sooo, folks, it be hard bein a young girl in this us of a. everybody wants to rape ya. ERRRBODY!!!!!!!!!!! And thats why i, folks, have devised a plan to dress like a metal boy. A metal young boy, with a long black shirt, crusty blue jean boy shorts of light blue, combat boots and a backwards cap that says vietnam. It is my favorite alter persona and no one needs to know that i have a fyne shapely young female body underneath. All they see is skinny tan limbs sticking out from the blackness.

I"m just a redneck metal kid whos parents are somewhat neglectful and alchoholic which made me turn out angry! so i set out on my bike in this lone world and i'm also on drugs a lot. I'm just some crazy white boy on drugs. Aint no harm! This is the persona one must assume in the hood if you are white. A crazy drug kid. When i bike through the various hoods i live by i must assume to be as solitudinal as one in a drug haze who does not want any business with nobody and just happens to be in the hood - yet also vacantly hard because of all da neglect my parents put on me since day one. Plus i'm a child. Who wants to harm a child? A little crazy forgotten white boy who huffs glue. This is the good persona that people will just leave you be.

Now if i must be a female in these places, and i'm wearing the black wife beater that shows i am one (Cursed it is, yet also it will one day bag me a fyne longhaired redneck crackhead dude), I gotta take the persona of hollow mean dissociation caused from bein' fucked hard since i was about three by every male family member I had, which would make me volitiale and crazy and gone from this world. like I'm foaming from the mouth. Yes, you have to be Hollow if you are to be a girl. Mental disorder hollow. "Yessir i've had dicks stuck in me since day one i've had more dicks in me than you can count Yessir i've been stuffed to the brim, i've been raised on the dicks yessir. I'm born and raised as a hole baby and baby my mind's a hole, I'm jsut a hole i'm just a hole i'm just a hole. You can rape me if you like, i'm mothafuckin numb i dont care i'm just a hole." And if a guy looks at you, just show him crazed vacantness in the eye. Liek you're a wild rabid animal. If he come close to you you'll scratch and foam and bite cause mayn i'd know what it's like to get a dick when you dont want it and now that i dont depend on food from the fucker who wants to put it in me I can fuckin kill him now. It'd be automatic how you'd scratch at him.

Also you gotta rub red berries on yourself all ove ryour face and arms and legs if you're a girl, it makes you look like you got da plague or leporcy or somethin bad that the fucker wouldn't wnat. Then just pop an alka seltzer under your tongue when he come at you and freak the motherfucker out.

I'm A FUCKIN FERAL GIRL, MUTHAFUCKA! YOU DONT KNOW WHO YOU BE TRYIN TO RAPE I BE RAISED BY DA WOLLLVES MAYN AND I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT BUT YOU"RE A LIVIN THING APPROACHIN MY SPACE AND IM GONNA FUCKIN GO FIGHTORFLIGHT ON YO ASS!!!!!!!!!

Now if i just wanna bike in dem beautiful vacant concrete places where its just shitty dry cleaning stores and tire marts and strip clubs and loading shits and parking lots for nowhere and poles and highway exits, you know the places that 20/20 tells you the weird fuckers lurk, just becuase there would be no fucking reason for anyone to stand there because there are NO THINGS there .. .. .if you just wanna see teh scrapey beauty of those corners under the hot summer sun and you dont wanna get FUCKED WITH then you GOTTA be a redneck metal kid. One who likes wrestlemania and car demolition derbies and state fairs where he lives on cotton candy because his parents just like forget about him there. ANY GIRL who in there is a girl just ASKIN to be the girl on the 20/20 that got raped and murdered. All dem good ol' 20/20s' involve taht beautiful scrapey exaust-smellin' concrete.

No sir there is just fuckin fat sleezeball greasy dudes back there who are either mexican and workin for real underpay loadin shit or are a trucker, and they'll just fuckin slobber all over you, the fucks. Naw you wanna be a metal kid who'll just chew his candy treats and not think twice about the fat old men and if they talk to him he'll just flip em the bird and ride smoothly away.

See, nobody nobody nobody knows who you are. all anyone can ever see is the split second flash of your image. no one know where you come from, no one knows if you've been horribly beat since you were a child and thus you a wiley crazy depraved fucker who key word just does not CARE. and THAT is the difference between 'the people you wanna stay away from' and 'the people who have to watch where they walk.' NOobody can tell whether you are the Person that you Wanna Stay Away From or not. Heyll i might as well could be. i've seen this life too much i had scalding forks put up my ass and that's all i sort of know that exists, what else is there i can only expect more i dont care i fi fuckin live or die mayn aint nothin for me here. It's that hollowness, that vacantness, that you gotta assume. No fear man, they don't know out there. They dont know.

But it's not like you're lookin for nothin. cause if you look like your lookin for it then you'll get it. . . .. but you gotta be the person, YOU gotta be the perosn, that walks on by in that crazy way that makes you see they're lost in their own head, they're like the only one who exists in their world and they've got that sort of unfocused manic sharpness in their look and they are struttin, barrelin through.

AND IT'S SO FUCKIN Hard pullin that off when you'r ea pretty young lass. HOW I LONG TO Be A FAT SCARY 45 YEAR OLD MAN WHO LOOKS INSANE. how i long people to fear me. JUST SO PEOPLE WONT MOTHERFUCKING FUCK WITH ME MAN!!! JUST SO THEY WONT FUCKING FUCK WITH ME!!!!!

see i used to be scared of everybody. Now as i've reached this peak of age i've been wonderin if the 20/20's i've watched all my childhood and all the warnings my mother has told me are real or not. Is this merica somethin to be scared of? I dont know but my faiths' been up and down mayn. Now i'm startin to think, Unbeleivably, that you're gonna get FUCKED if you are a young girl, and you have the aura that you are on the Fringe. YOu know, hooker, drug addict, or in my case some extremely restless kid who feels the emptiness all the time and has too much of a fear of not living my life to the fullest. If you're out at night alone, in the concrete or the city, someone somewhere will find you and get you. WHY MAYN WHY!>>!>!!>> i jsut dont know exactly how it is. Are there really taht many crazy rape fuckers around!? ANd will fate inevitably bring them to just the fine fresh little thing that the LOARD wants to see corrupted?? WHat a stupid gig, i say, if this is the case. What a stupid fucking gig.

See, those people that would get me have landed themselves in a very prestigeous hall of fame. That of "people you want to stay away from." "People who you dont want to run into at night." They've made it to the very top, the greatest most wonderful point you can. AND I WANNA BE ONE OF EM MAYN!!!!! Cause only then are you one of THEM, and only then do THEY fear YOU. NOT THAT I WANT TO HARM ANYONE BECAUSE I DONT!!!! BUT OTHERS TO SEE ME AS THAT WILEY WEIRD FUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO BE THE ONE THE PUBLIC WARNS YOU OF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO BE ON THE OTHER SIDE!!!!!!!!f

and how do you get there?? Well some will say you have to just EARN it there and taht would mean killing a lot of yourself - liek the drugs have to do it to you, the brain holes. Only then through those things entering your life and aura can you reach the Highest Plane of People you want to Stay Away from. DO I HAVE TO KILL A PART OF MYSELF AND ONLY THEN WILL PEOPLE NOT FUCK WITH ME!!?!?!?!??! I say NO!!!! IM FUCKING PISSED and i can go there, only because THE OTHER PERSON IN FRONT OF YOU HAS NO IDEA WHO YOU FUCKING ARE. Why i could be a fucking ALEIN!!!!!!!!

i just gotta get strap. How fucking nice it will be when i have a nice black gun in my pants, hidden there from all yet goddamn it will give me fuckin confidence. becuaswe i want to harm nobody. but if someone comes up, or jumps out of a truck because there's a fucking SUPPLE YOUNG GIRLY GIRL ON A BIKE THAT THEY CAN JUST TAKE ON UP AND DO WHATEVER THEY LIKE WITH NO PROBLEM, becuase of this MOTHERFUCKING CURSE OF MY MOTHER FUCKING BODY, i'll just whip that fucker out and say "baby i really dont wanna do this." and then it will be their choice whether they live or die.

fuck this body.

i'll tell you what'll gnaw on a human's brain and will make them snap. i'll tell you what'll fill a person with silent rage that could make them snap at any moment. I'll  tell you what'll make people want to kill. I'll tell you what turns a man into one of the "People you Want to Stay Away From."

It's the goddamned motherfucking body they just happened to have landed in. that the good lord gave them. that they just happen to be inhabiting. The body of supple young shapely firm tight fresh female. That gets FUCKED with all fucking day long. To be born with the thing that gets you condemned, gets you put down to bein lower than dirt, gets you put into the role of weak little thing that can get thrown around, gets you laughed at and not taken seriously and makes everyone say it would be so easy to get dragged away and 'corrupted.'

Oh yes motherfucker i've been corrupted. So i say instead, thank you folks. Becuase now i'm a fuckin hollow corrupted hole. And now i just dont give a fuck baby. And now i've got the fucking gun. And now you'll want to stay away from ME at night motherfucker.

it's the fuckin schoolgirl army mayn. Powered by  you, you sick mexican dockloader trucker fucks who try and take us down. The more you try and beat us, the more we gon get angry baby. The fucka's gonna rise so let the motherfucka rise. it's comin for you bothways let the mother fucker rise.