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Saturday, August 15, 2009

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 04:35:42 GMT

OAH man oah man man you think ur washed up you think ur washed up.

ollld n dryyyyy and cracked oh yyesss sirrr OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOh mah faiths been up and down been up and down and oh lately ive beennn doowwwnnnn

BEEN TRYIN TO REMEMBER BEEN TRYIN TO REMEMBER Oh yeh.

TRYIN TO REMEMBER TRYIN TO RMEMEMBER OH yeh.

but oh brodda sometimes u just lay in that fucking chair where ders nothin man ders nothin man.

oh aiiiinnnt nothin cause you think ur washed up

YOU THINK UR WASHED UP@@@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ohhhhh i long for oh i want oh i want i want i wish for i want them glory days of youth

OOHHHHHHH to be a manic teenager oh to be one once again oh to have that joyous carefree sporatdic youth of easy mac and aqua teen and you dont do much because you are still livin in ur parents house cause you have to cause you have to go to school

SO YOU JUST at easy mac and go on the internet on ur forum site on yur little account make inside jokes with your friendssss

OH HHHH GLORious nothing oh glorious nothing.

you doin glorious nothing but you dont care cause you young and carefree and it dont matter cause you dont have to be doin somethin cause you still have to live with your parents cause you still have to go to schoolllllll

ohhhhhhh ur like boxxy oh yes ive watched that girl once again i say oh she carefree and she loose. mayn she just gets on the computer and talks about shit that dont really matter like avatars but it matter to her and it just al flows out cause ladee da she just carefree oh yes she carefree.

la dee daaaa you watch the aqua teen on the tv and eat the pizza rolls in your mothrs kitchen with the plastic appliances , go you your friends house in thier kitchen with deyr plastic appliances

oh its glorious nothin oh its glorious nothin

Oh i say "i used to be manic." now i say perhaps im dried and done. been put on those lithiums perhaps ive caved in and im dried and done. Oh i say "i used to be like dat boxxy loose and free and manic and foaming foaming foaming at the mouth because i just had to mayn i just had to i just had to rant rant about what it dont matter you just let that shit flow out and ten you feel so good soo good so good but it just life to her that boxxy its just how she is its just her crazy crazy life."

but now i fell i've lost that self and i say where have i gone i say have i dparted from myself i say where have i gone.

Crazy crazy life manic and floating and moving the limbs and just doin the stuff in your mothers kitchen cookin the easy mac and in your room talkin to your frineds

but you just dont think nothin of it.

Oh you just dont think nothin of it you just float on crazay.

But all ive been doin is thinkin everything of it thinkin everything of where i am and what i should be doin that i just cant even be there at all.

oh i used to be manic and free and angry and insecure and a soft skinned youth but am i anymore.

fells ive been sucked out ive been sucked out.

OHHHH i used to write oh now perhaps i cant

OOHHH i used to draw now perhaps i cant

ohhh ii used to be a good performer but now perhaps i'm shriveled up and done.

shriveled up and done.

Oh baby i long for that magic i long for that magic. i long for them pockets of magic that peek through i long for them pockets of magic. Oh nostalgia for teenage days. the internet, the suburban kid. light and loose and floating along. though perhaps this wasnt even my nostalgia actually i dont think it was. its just an imagined nostalgia for how boxxy's life may have been. But yes i long fo that magic oh that magic. the south the south the south. oooh those things on tv. those cartoons. why do you watch them they're not taht great but all of america gts into them.

oh i see the jimmy fallon dance on jimmy fallon and how the internet merges with the tv and i see all the things of memes and it makes me ache horribly horribly oh ihow i want to be a part of it to cause that mass thing, oh the uprising of the peoploe and the integration of tv and internet and the integration into real life makes me feel like im movin along, ioh i want to feel myself move along it but also cause it.

oh what to do about ur adventures when u live in a house with ur parent and in the midle of suburbia and????? what to do for adventures? used to ride on my bike find homeless people and swimin a creek. and then i say 'oh i used to be manic but what about now?' lately ive been takin to lyin on a couch, leavin my body pretendin im a corpse. aint nothin else to do. aint nothin else. what else to do what else? gettin up is hell, i'll know i'll just lie there.

But they gon hypnotize i have an appointment hope they can do it

cause im an anxious depressed perfectionist and im fuckin stuck.

Oh themn carefree days of youth of aqua teen and easy mac and the internet, everything meaningless but you dont care if its meaningless cause you dont even think about if its meaningless carefree floatin along.

atleast this is the youth i imagine for boxxy and such.

OH why do i say i used to have things.

why do i say i used to have things.

always i say i used to have a thing yet even when i supposedly had that thing i was goin 'oh i used to have a thing.'

always im dried up old dead version of myself.

yet im nineteen pretty girl and i should be fresh and flippant and yahhhe!!!!!!!!

yet i feel like a crusty old man. Maybe i should fuck myself! It's all i ever wanted!

Then those are those glorious pockets where you do remember, remember happiness and everything even the depression is just humourous life and you say 'oh yes' and you think dammit man, i cant be lyin around anymore, i've got it all man i've got it all! i've got it all man!

everything is humourous, all the shit is humorous, just like aqua teen and you embrace your periods of staelness and nothingness.

But always i USEd to ahve something., i uSED to have something . USEd to be something. Glorrry days gloorry days

was readin about the hells angels today, that makes you feel fuckin alive, all your homeless endeavors you suddenly remember are Good man! I've been wearin big black boots and goin out on my bike lookin for shit and adventures just like them angels ,and you get all hype and look at these boring fucking poeople in borders and you say I GOTTA HAVE ADVENTURES MAN I GOTTA HAVE THEM I MEAN WHT IS THIS STUPID LIFE THIS IS WHO I AM MAN THE DOMESTICATED BULLSHIT IS NOT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and those are the good hype manic pockets. the ones i wish for.

oh im just gon keep longi nfor the magic

just gon keep wishin for the magic and the remembering

just gon keep strivin for that fuckin heavy erotic wonderful Doom Metal, that hilarious free satan-infuzed wonderful Black Metal, that FUckin Frenzy Alive Energy of Cannibal corpse

oh i hope it comes man i hope it comes

oh it comes sometimes man it comes sometimes

oh im just gon keep waitin just gon keep waitin

cause theres nothin to do but wait until it comes

and oh when it comes it'll be good

when it comes it'll be good

but i just gotta keep wishin and gotta keep strivin

its all i can do its gon come.

yessir its gon come.

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